Raspberry Juice

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Friday January 27, 2012 8:10AM

“…I was driving to class this morning, and I realized that this will be my last summer as a teenager. I’ll be 20 in November. I’m going to try to have some fun this summer. i don’t know what. Just try to enjoy it…”

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Friday January 27, 2012 9:09PM

“I mentioned that I was going to try to have fun this summer. The truth is that I can’t just turn on the fun switch like that. Not right now. I’m too out of touch with me. This week is my first time journaling in 19 months. and I’ve forgotten how. I’ve forgotten how to journal and how to write and how to be me. I stopped journaling on purpose. because I didn’t want to have to always evaluate what I was feeling or what I was thinking or what was going on in my life. Now I’ve largely forgotten how to do all of that. There used to be a time, just over 19 months ago, when I could sit down and randomly decide to write a 10 page story about a best friend and then spit out a book’s worth of amazingness. Now, just writing to fill up this page is difficult. i have a lot of barriers up that I didn’t even realize I had. Anyway, that’s why I’m going to start writing again. That’s the only way I’ll be able to have “fun” this summer. And not just for the summer, but to get back the 19 months that i’ve lost.”

EB
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